Family

I located my biological father's side of the family finally. I have wondered about them all my life, and I finally posted a request for information on a genealogical site asking for information on my father from anyone who may have known him. I had very limited information. All I could really add was my mom's name and hope and pray that someone from his family would know her and contact me. Sure enough, my half-sister's daughter wrote a reply and gave my brother's name and told me that they lived with them while my mom was married to my father. She gave me details about them that I had not mentioned so I knew she was the real deal. I have been communicating with my father's side of the family for about a year now. They finally explained to me why my father never tried to locate me or see me or anything. I am heart broken to know the things that my uncle did to keep him away from me. Knowing my uncle, I have no doubt about what they told me. I don't understand why my mom went along with all that he did to keep me from meeting and knowing my father and many other things. I am both broken hearted that I was robbed of knowing him in this life, and relieved to know that I am now in correspondence with his family. I cannot wait to meet them. I really wish I could have known him but life is what it is. I will get the chance to meet him on the other side.

Challenges

How do I want to begin this blog? That is a very good question. Well, I guess I just did huh? LOL Anyway my life has some new challenges to it that was just put upon us. Like where are we going to get the money to pay the bills, rent, buy food, etc... Yes, you probably figured it out now we are both out of work and he isn't able to start school like we had planned. I have been searching for any type of job I could find and now more than ever I need one, but for some reason nobody is hiring me. I was able to draw unemployment benefits but that was stopped so now we are faced with what to do. Although it seems really grim when I think about it, I feel strangely at peace with my life, even though it is Topsy turvy right now, because I have been blessed with everything I needed to survive in the past when things looked way grim, so now I have the faith that somehow things will work out again. Among other issues my puppy was stung by a bee today and she was so swollen after just a few minutes that she couldn't breathe properly and her eyes had swollen shut. We were so scared, fortunately my hubby called the vet emergency care and they said to give her Benadryl which thankfully helped. She is tons better now. That was $100s of dollars saved right there. See things do work out and she is doing well. I feel truly blessed even though everything seems to be going wrong. I still stick by my motto 'Life is good'. I am truly blessed.I just hope that my prayers for a job are answered a lot sooner than later...lol Keep us in your prayers please. Thank you!

Just thinking

This blog is full of random thoughts that I have been having. Nothing too serious. Like, The first one is I really truly would love to win the lottery so I can buy my mom a house in the mountains with some land, because that is her dream. She has given so much for me and too me through out the years that I would love to be able to give her that one gift. Then I think it would be wonderful for my husband and I to start having a family of our own. I would love to have at least two children before I am forty. I have been tossing around the idea in my mind about starting my own little travelling karaoke business. I would have all the equipment and songs and everything needed and travel to where ever the party would be and set up and play the music, just working out the particulars. I love karaoke so I figure I would love the career in it. I would really love to have at least 5 to 10 acres of land and a home of our own some day soon. All this comes back to winning the lottery jackpot, which I intend to do before this year is complete. :-) These are just a few of my thoughts.

List of things I'm grateful for.

This is a small list of things that I appreciate having in my life. I am so grateful for these blessings listed below and I will add to it periodically. Feel free to reply with things that you are grateful for if you would like.

1. my wonderful husband
2. fantastic family members
3. terrific and amazing friends
4. lovable puppy
5. Music of all types- Music really improves everything!
6. all 5 senses work properly
7. holidays and loved ones to share them with
8. the ability to continue to learn new things
9. food
10. money to pay the bills
11. a reliable car
12. being surrounded by love
13. my warm safe home
14. beautiful Christmas trees and decorations
15. kind, considerate people

painting

Yep, it's official, I am attempting to learn how to paint. I am a beginner, however I am having a lot of fun at this new hobby of mine. I am painting a scenic picture. So far I have the water, sky, and a mountain painted. We will see how good it looks when I complete it. Right now it is pretty hilarious to look at...hehe I am having fun doing it and I think that is all that really matters at this point. I will keep you all posted on the status of the painting.